:: catalyst ::

haven’t been here in a while. and what do ya know, it’s a new year.

umm, happy new year and may this year be the Best Year Ever and may you inherit many riches and may vast wonders astound you, blah blah blah, yaketty yak yak.

ok. :)

last night i went to bed feeling kinda yucky and topsy turvy and i woke up feeling the same. in my topsy-turvisty, a word fell into my head. my usual morning thoughts are muddled and monosyllabic so i was a bit surprised.

CATALYST

// an agent that provokes or speeds significant change or action //

so a lot of people right now (maybe even you, dear reader) consider the commencement of a brand new year to “provoke significant change” in the way they eat, their frequency of exercise, their spending habits, etc. that is fine and dandy.

apparently for the unmotivated variety of folks (such as yours truly), it takes a bit more than the flipping a calendar for change to occur.

sadly, God has to resort to allowing life to drop loads of bricks on Jen and backhand Jen in the face. why? oh, i know why. all of my disappoints and despairs are working together for the good. For The Good. i often say that i LOVE the irony of God. it defies my rudimentary human reasoning.

does it make sense for uncomfortable circumstances to bring about comfort, after a time? ABSOLUTELY NOT

is that how God works? BINGO

why the bad stuff, Lord? to draw me closer to Him. He’s really the only One that matters in my life, ya know.

8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.

9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 corinthians 12:8-10